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Taking a break

“Creativity takes courage.” 
― Henri Matisse

If you follow me on Twitter you'll have seen me say that I'm scaling back on social media. That means I'll no longer post very much to Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr (I've not been there a while), Instagram or LinkedIn. I'll still be recording monologues on Podbean but probably only once a week -- I've yet to decide on the day but it's likely to be a Monday. If I write anywhere then it will be limited to Patreon.

In terms of blogging, both here and on my main site, I've decided to stop writing a regular post. To be honest, I should have done this years ago. It's not that I haven't enjoyed the practice (and I hope you've gained something by reading it/them) but, the truth is, it's stopped me from writing to be published -- my ultimate aim.

This isn't an easy decision, but there's no longer a link between the need to write online and what I want to do with my life.

I'm sure in this digiital ag…
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We're all going to die

You'd think, knowing that, we'd seek something more fulfilling than a life of faux experiences but it's not how we're conditioned to behave.

In fact, it's worse that that.

We want it now.

All of it: money, prestige, fame, love and material stuff.

(On the opposite side of this meme, we've this huge aversion to any form of suffering.)

But just imagine if this day was your last...

What would you do?

I know what you'd do.

Nothing different.

Why should you?

You know it's going to end. Hell yeah!, you might as well live today on maximum pleasure.

What if you stretched it out, and someone told you that you had 12 months left?

Would you try to change the world or crave yet more of the hedonistic stuff?

Who really knows?

I suppose in the end, it's how much you value life that really matters. But, judging by the number of people who abuse their bodies, eat to excess and use alcohol as a prop, my summation is that we're just not very serious people. In fac…

You won't change

“The snake which cannot cast its skin has to die. As well the minds which are prevented from changing their opinions; they cease to be mind.”  ― Friedrich Nietzsche
When I look at my life, it's replete with periods of change.
Unfortunately, though, it was no different to changing my clothes.
In short, it might have felt that I'd cast off my persona, in favour of something more empowering, but it didn't take long for the sense of lack to return.
Whilst I'm not saying it had to be this way, it was only when I came close to death (and witnessing others in the same place) that everything changed, and I woke from my narcissistic torpor.
There are many ways to see this but your 'angst is your liberation' (see the teachings of Jun Po Denis Kelly).
But what about you?
Do you feel, despite many brave attempts to fundamentally change your life, you're still playing the same song?
Perhaps you've journeyed within but chances are you've done so (only) with the same sense…

Back in the creative groove

“The receptivity of the artist must never be confused with passivity.” 
― Rollo May, The Courage to Create

It's been a while since I've felt like this.

Don't ask me why, but I couldn't summon anything more than enough creative juice to produce this blog and a few posts and recordings to Patreon.

I know it's tempting fate to report on my renewed sense of purpose but, right now, I've this overwhelming sense of needing to create:


brush calligraphy



and books.

I don't have a modus operandi. 

I show up.

I either write to my computer or I sit at my other desk on the other side of the room which I reserved for the other stuff, 

and wait...

If something happens, it happens.

If it doesn't. 

So what!

I don't know your thing but even if you have to work for 'The Man', never forget that under all those layers of self-doubt and negative thinking lies a creative genius. 

I'm serious.

It's not just my theory but I believe with all my heart…

A new relationship

“It isn't by getting out of the world that we become enlightened, but by getting into the world…by getting so tuned in that we can ride the waves of our existence and never get tossed because we become the waves.”  ― Ken Kesey, Kesey's Garage Sale
We're told that to change our lives it requires grit, fortitude and peseverance.
Perhaps it does.
My experience is different.
We need look within and understand three things: Everything changes;When we make emptiness form, we suffer; andWhen we let go and stop clinging or pushing away, we allow everything to exist in perfect harmony.There's nothing knew in what I'm saying. Indeed, this is pure Buddhist scripture.
But too many of us never go far enough in our self-enquiry: the reason the world is so angst-ridden is because said humans take seriously what the Gods made for fun, i.e. our thoughts, feelings and emotions.
Take care.